Agape

I didn’t like the word love

And I won’t say I never did cause they say never say never
And I do remember there was a day when I ate, drank, breathed every fairytale ever
And it was clear to be seen in every underlying theme
That love was the answer and love was the key
Love Stitched any wound no matter how deep
Love kissed every princess from China to Greece
leaped mountains on land and swam thru the seas
And there wasn’t a problem too wide or too tall that love couldn’t solve
Cause love was strong love held on
Love conquered all

But I didn’t like the word love
Call me bitter
Call me a pessimist
but just wait till I finish
And really try and get this

Have someone say they’ve loved you from the time you were conceived
Then watch them leave
Have someone plant laughter in your bones and happiness in your veins
And then look them in the eye as they try to explain why they can’t stay

You see

Love Holds hands with bitterness
And clinks drinks with hate
Mingles with jealousy
And flirts with fate
Love likes playing games
ignites burning flames
Invites both your heart and your Brain
But mind you, loves best friend is pain
LOVE is a four lettered word
That doesn’t even begin to measure the magnitude of its worth

Cause you can’t tell me that 4 little letters explains
Why this feeling never goes away
Why I always get a lump in my throat at the sound of his name
Why the memories still reverberate and bring both a smile to my face
But at the same time causes this muscle in my chest to ache

You see L-O-V-E doesn’t make sense to me.

Cause the most hurt stems from the most love
Like how the struggle of giving birth brings to life pure beauty from above
How does something so filling take so much of us
Something so thrilling make such a mess of us
How does it hurt so many but heal the rest of us
How does it bring out both the worst and the best of us
You see L-O-V-E doesn’t cut it for me

Cause they told me That if I loved hard enough
That I would wake up
And it would go back to it being the five of us
But the fairy tales were wrong
Cause my Jimney Cricket, my Mushu, my fairly godmother never came along
And the stories said that love would hold us together
But it never read the forecast about the weather
And wether or not this coming Storm would last forever
But I wanted to keep the happiness and I wanted to hold on to the laughter
And I knew I wasn’t a princess
But I wanted a happily ever after

You see l o v e can’t possibly grasp what it is really.

So I erased it from my vocabulary
Cause trying to understand it was like a maze to me
And the amount of times I heard it used amazed me
Love seemed less of a blessing and more of a catastrophe
And I remember in school those girls would throw that word around like a football
So lightly so often no hesitation no withdrawal
“Thanks for the cookie, you’re the best I love you”
“You did the home work? Yas! I love you!”

And it served as a daily reminder
That “Love” was the funniest joke I ever heard
Cause The word couldn’t leave their lips any faster
Always Drenched in a fresh new coat of plaster
And one day in church I actually paid attention and heard it used by The pastor
And he talked about how God’s love engulfed us in any situation it didn’t matter
And I chuckled cause I knew I knew better
That love was just a combination of 4 random letters
And I wanted to prove myself right
So I started the search
Of flipping page after page reading till my eyes hurt
Trying to read between the lines
and find the different signals and signs
trying to figure out how God defined
This thing that in my mind was so absurd
And Verse after verse the more my lines blurred
Verse after verse the morethe wheels turned
Cause I noticed something that I never noticed at first
like Extreme and Frankie J God knew that it was more than words
That God was the inventor of actions speak louder than words
He knew nouns and adjectives wouldn’t be enough So he stuck to the Verbs

Cause there’s not one verse that read “and God said “I love you.”” Period that’s it
He knew that words could be fabricated
He knew how easy our very lips could counterfeit
So he planted the truth in the things he did

You see For God so loved the world
That he GaVE
He didn’t just say that he could save
He actually came down and saved
He chose to demonstrate you can find that one in Romans 5:8
And he didn’t try too woo me with his words or confuse me with his ways
But instead He chose to wait
He didn’t need to convince me and he didn’t try to win me
Cause the funny thing about the truth is it always finds its way to victory
So God was patient until the day
When I realized that what I needed wasn’t so much spontaneous fate but just a little more faith

I didn’t like the word love
Cause I didn’t know what it meant so when it left my lips I never really meant it.
But it all became so clear to me
why love was such a mystery
It’s because Webster and Miriam gave me the wrong Definition
twisted and distorted, the world made their own rendition
For theres NO greater love than when a man lays down his life.
I was searching scouring the earth when just 3 words would suffice,
Looking left and right when the answer came from above
Believe me when i say 3 words is Enough.
and I’ve been ranting but I’ll leave it at this
believe HIM when he says three words is enough
because three words is enough…

God is love.

The One

She’s the girl you fall for
But don’t feel the bruises till later
The one that makes it impossible to hate her
The one you swear you’d never like yet somehow she finds
a place to rest in your brain each and every night
She’s the one that you don’t fall in love with at first sight
But like a fine wine
she only gets better with time

Then one day, all of a sudden, you think “Well just maybe I might”

                                          She’s already your ride or die

                                             So it might as well be till death do us part

                                                Cause she’s there in the dark

                                                    And shes there in the light

And you don’t feel bad about bothering her cause she makes you feel alright

 makes you want to make wrong things right

                                           She triggers both fight and flight

                                         Cause you fight like a married couple

                                                         But you take flight at the sound of her name

Let’s just say perfection does in deed have a face

Or at least in your brain

   Cause not everyone sees her the same

         But to you, thru your eyes she’s beyond what you prayed

              She makes you want to stay

         But at the same time pushes you away

Cause her trust issues.. well they’re  on level Drake

 Her name a synonym to heart break

she’s either worth the wait

Or the one that got away

She’s easy to forgive but hard to forget

Slow to anger hard to upset

And she’ll take you on a ride that you won’t regret

                                              But she’s a drug so beware the side effects

                                                    So intricate so complex

                                                          You can try to prepare

                               but she’s nothing you’d expect

                                           And you feel your self falling but you let your self get swept

                                               Like when the Warriors beat the Mavericks in 2007

Beautiful disaster at its best

                                           You just pray that at least your dignity is kept

But her laughter is just so contagious

Her smile makes people wonder what her name is

But you can see it in her eyes the girl knows what pain is

You can feel her heart with the words that she paints with

But her smile might deceive a crowd but it doesn’t fool you

And you’ll tell her when it’s just you two

That she can let her guard down and to talk to you too

And she’ll be bewildered at your notion

A little vulnerable from exposion

A little defensive from emotion

But you’ll give her time

You wait

Cause you remember what your momma told you

That patience is a virtue

That good things come to those that wait

And it wasn’t coincidence that you met her it had to be fate

So you wait

 And you ask her again

And she’ll be bewildered at your notion

A little vulnerable from expotion

A little defensive from emotion

And she’ll want to stay but her human instinct tells her to run away

So you wait

And you’ll ask again and again

wishing that she’d just let you in

But one day she’ll be so tired of running that she’ll  finally let down her guard

She’ll tell you all about how she wants to change the world

and travel to places from here to afar

tell you tall tales about each and every one of her scars

Tell you her dreams and aspirations from the skies to the stars

She’s the girl that has her head in the clouds

But her gravity centered

The one that doesn’t take no for an answer a natural go getter

She’s tough, and she’s fierce in her own way

Yet at the same time delicate; don’t you mistake.

She’s the girl you never say “bye” to, only “see you later”

You’re the Danny to her Sandy

And she’s the The Jesse to your Slater

She’s Childish in the way that brings the Gambino out of you

But she can be elegant and sophisticated when she needs to too

You just stare at her, but not cause she’s a super model but more cause she’s usually doing something dumb

Other times you’ll catch your self glaring wondering wether you should stay or run

Meanwhile here you two are at day break

yet to you she’s more beautiful than the sun

And one day you’ll look at her flaws, faults and imperfection

and you’ll just know that

“She’s the one.”

Tie-the-Knot

Peaceful mornings 
Sleep filled nights 
Productive days
Cleared mind

                    Then Along you came

                            Disrupted my pace 

                            And replaced sleep with insanity

                               Cause your beauty, it captures me

                     Your imperfections make you perfect 

                 And I love the way you glance at me

        You’re how I want my days to start 

     Let our adventures commence

                   Till death do us part

                                         you’re my beginning and my end

                             And I know they say to take your time

   But although cliche I can’t wait to make you mine

They say love is blind

 But love is patient love is kind

So today’s the day that I take your hand and you take mine

I vow to cherish and hold you

You vow to stick it through

You look at me I look at you

 I do. I do. I do. 

Peaceful Frustration

Off my feet, come sweep me.

Spoil me, make me feel like a lady

But beware my hard exterior and tight security

Let me explore your core and my “no” might become a “maybe”

I’m not one to trust

My scars are to blame for that

And I’m so easy to fool

The fairy tales are to blame for that

Your mind is my playground,

Your thoughts are my puzzle pieces.

Swing, swing don’t let me down;

Grooves find their places until you’re completed

silent admiration, intricate complexion

I’ll admire your beauty for but a few seconds.

Then you’ll scramble in fear

I’ll scramble in fear

Cause our scars remind us that comfort never stays here

And people never stay near

And happy endings, well they only happen on the TV screen

But we both know that, that will never be you, and that will never be me.

Cause you’re not a prince and I’m not a princess

And stories like that aren’t meant for people like us

But I still hope and dream and even pray

That the scars will be silenced and I can send security away

But in the mean while I’ll just keep my hopes high.

In the mean while I’ll lay back and keep my eyes to the sky.

‘Cause to be honest it’s relaxing remembering the beauty of peace

Us humans love chaos so much we forget the simple things

So I’ll count stars and surf waves,

Stitch my wounds time to start the mending

And maybe if I stop looking I’ll just fall into a fairy tale ending.

Love

What God offers is so non-traditional
the love he gives us is so unconditional
and it catches us off guard
cause we’re used to fighting and war
and even those that claim they “love” each other Break up and Divorce.
What is love? Baby don’t hurt me no more
What is love they ask?
what is love I ask?
and loud and clear He answers back…

“I am the the beginning and the end the perfect sacrifice; God-sent.
I am the first and the last, the Alpha and Omega,
I am the one and only savior.

I knew you before you were even in your mom’s womb,
I counted every single hair on your head before they even grew
I made you YOU before you even knew.

I remembered your birthday before it even existed,
I AM the one who breathed you into existence.

So come to Me all you that are weary
Come to Me all the liars and the cheats
the prostitutes and the meek

Come to Me all the ones who messed up, ‘fessed up, even ‘yall that dress to impress I don’t care the color of your skin or the scale of your sin
or the depth of the rut that you’re stuck in

Come to Me those that never felt good enough,
those that society got a hold of and deemed you not cool enough
not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not tall enough, not fat enough

Come to Me all the killers and the stealers the feared ones and the weird ones Come to Me, come to Me, come to Me,
I say from above because…

I AM LOVE. “