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I’m at a lost for words
because I’m at a lost in life.

I don’t know wether I’m flying or sinking
wether I’m dreaming or thinking

I’m running full speed in the clouds
but on the ground I’m stagnant
My soul screaming out loud
but my mouth stays silent

But I’m letting you mold me,
You are the author, you wrote my story
I’m just waiting for the plot to unfold before me
I’m leaping, I’m falling, trusting you to hold me

You found me damaged, because the world destroyed me
But you took my broken story and rewrote it; you restored me

I’m at a lost for words
because I’m at a lost in life.

But Your words give me worth
and your light give me life.

The One

She’s the girl you fall for
But don’t feel the bruises till later
The one that makes it impossible to hate her
The one you swear you’d never like yet somehow she finds
a place to rest in your brain each and every night
She’s the one that you don’t fall in love with at first sight
But like a fine wine
she only gets better with time

Then one day, all of a sudden, you think “Well just maybe I might”

                                          She’s already your ride or die

                                             So it might as well be till death do us part

                                                Cause she’s there in the dark

                                                    And shes there in the light

And you don’t feel bad about bothering her cause she makes you feel alright

 makes you want to make wrong things right

                                           She triggers both fight and flight

                                         Cause you fight like a married couple

                                                         But you take flight at the sound of her name

Let’s just say perfection does in deed have a face

Or at least in your brain

   Cause not everyone sees her the same

         But to you, thru your eyes she’s beyond what you prayed

              She makes you want to stay

         But at the same time pushes you away

Cause her trust issues.. well they’re  on level Drake

 Her name a synonym to heart break

she’s either worth the wait

Or the one that got away

She’s easy to forgive but hard to forget

Slow to anger hard to upset

And she’ll take you on a ride that you won’t regret

                                              But she’s a drug so beware the side effects

                                                    So intricate so complex

                                                          You can try to prepare

                               but she’s nothing you’d expect

                                           And you feel your self falling but you let your self get swept

                                               Like when the Warriors beat the Mavericks in 2007

Beautiful disaster at its best

                                           You just pray that at least your dignity is kept

But her laughter is just so contagious

Her smile makes people wonder what her name is

But you can see it in her eyes the girl knows what pain is

You can feel her heart with the words that she paints with

But her smile might deceive a crowd but it doesn’t fool you

And you’ll tell her when it’s just you two

That she can let her guard down and to talk to you too

And she’ll be bewildered at your notion

A little vulnerable from exposion

A little defensive from emotion

But you’ll give her time

You wait

Cause you remember what your momma told you

That patience is a virtue

That good things come to those that wait

And it wasn’t coincidence that you met her it had to be fate

So you wait

 And you ask her again

And she’ll be bewildered at your notion

A little vulnerable from expotion

A little defensive from emotion

And she’ll want to stay but her human instinct tells her to run away

So you wait

And you’ll ask again and again

wishing that she’d just let you in

But one day she’ll be so tired of running that she’ll  finally let down her guard

She’ll tell you all about how she wants to change the world

and travel to places from here to afar

tell you tall tales about each and every one of her scars

Tell you her dreams and aspirations from the skies to the stars

She’s the girl that has her head in the clouds

But her gravity centered

The one that doesn’t take no for an answer a natural go getter

She’s tough, and she’s fierce in her own way

Yet at the same time delicate; don’t you mistake.

She’s the girl you never say “bye” to, only “see you later”

You’re the Danny to her Sandy

And she’s the The Jesse to your Slater

She’s Childish in the way that brings the Gambino out of you

But she can be elegant and sophisticated when she needs to too

You just stare at her, but not cause she’s a super model but more cause she’s usually doing something dumb

Other times you’ll catch your self glaring wondering wether you should stay or run

Meanwhile here you two are at day break

yet to you she’s more beautiful than the sun

And one day you’ll look at her flaws, faults and imperfection

and you’ll just know that

“She’s the one.”

Tie-the-Knot

Peaceful mornings 
Sleep filled nights 
Productive days
Cleared mind

                    Then Along you came

                            Disrupted my pace 

                            And replaced sleep with insanity

                               Cause your beauty, it captures me

                     Your imperfections make you perfect 

                 And I love the way you glance at me

        You’re how I want my days to start 

     Let our adventures commence

                   Till death do us part

                                         you’re my beginning and my end

                             And I know they say to take your time

   But although cliche I can’t wait to make you mine

They say love is blind

 But love is patient love is kind

So today’s the day that I take your hand and you take mine

I vow to cherish and hold you

You vow to stick it through

You look at me I look at you

 I do. I do. I do. 

Sticky Situations

Red and blue wires

hold together the intricate clockwork

that dictates the ticking and the tocking.

The steady beats of this masterpiece;

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Beats up. Beats down.

It’s not something you wind up and watch it play out.

You are the hero and the heroine there’s no way out.

You are the poison and the anti-dote,

the crashing waves and the safety boat.

Mind racing. Slow pacing.

Fast pacing. Time racing.

Which wires to cut, and which ones to keep

What measures to take and what bounds to leap

Just please let me keep my dignity

My self respect, and my sanity

And no matter the consequences, free will only blames me

Cause I decide my own fate and create my own reality

My mind is programmed to push away the ones I need near

And what I want isn’t what I need but I like the feeling of you here.

But take caution I always leave a trail of casualties

I’m a ticking bomb, machine gun; lethality

So keep your distance or beware the fatality

Don’t dare come closer lest you attempt  insanity.

Cause my actions say one thing

But my brain says another

While my soul keeps on running

As my heart aches under pressure

But no one would ever realize

Cause the walls are built high

And my smile keeps security tight,

eyes trained to make everything feel alright.

In the midst of chaos I can be still. I can be light.

And there’s no such thing as visitor privileges;

You either break in or peek in

Trespass or sneak in

Nothing out, only keep in.

Life motto learned from people always leaving.

But somehow you seeped in.

Tiptoed your way around, you creeped in.

Used a cheat code and found your key in.

And I want to run but I’m knee deep in

Good times good laughs and good conversation

finishing each other sentences, we started sharing quotations

But I know this is temporary, you’re like a good vacation

Easy breezy in the moment but then there’s the realization

of reality, gravity, the silent frustration

this high is just a short-lived tingling sensation

Cloud 9 is actually only a figment of our imagination

’cause happy endings don’t come from sticky situations.

True or False

Things that are too good to be true

are like a genie in a bottle you win and you lose

What seems so perfect at first

takes dips and turns

 What seems like the best becomes the worst

But with every Fairy tale comes a curse

So who’s to say if the risk is worth

The waiting debating and the contemplating

The tossing and turning

I guess it’s all part of living and learning

And you’d think I’d be able to spot these by now

But we all have our weaknesses and I let my guard down

So it’s too late I’m vulnerable at best

With a mind that won’t rest

Trying to make sense from the senseless

A damsel in distress

Except there’s no prince to save me

Cause I’m not a princess

 I am my own insanity

Self destructive at best

Things that are too good to be true

Are funny cause you know what your getting into

But you let yourself fall even if you knew

Pretending you don’t know what to do

Naive to reality

Blind brutality

And you try so hard not to lose your balance

But words are so deceiving

And actions are misleading

And when your heart and brain aren’t agreeing

 your inner being takes a beating

Things that are too good to be true

Always find their way to me

But I always give the benefit of the doubt

So falling has become routine to me

Cause bad habits don’t die easy

And the fairy tales are real to me

but it’s taking a toll on my soul

And I’m getting pretty weary too

Ground so grey but sky so blue

So I’ll keep my head up and try to avoid

The Things that are too good to be true.